His arms are my arms....

Dear ?.....
    I have not felt close to God for a long time. Something was missing I found myself empty and lonely. I really had no idea what was wrong. I was aimless as a mother, and my discipline of my children was inconsitent and fraught with anger. My household management was wanting. In the past, my husband and I have had a good relationship, but even that was limp. I often cry myself to sleep, not knowing what was wrong.
   My husband had been attempting to get intimate with me during "that time of the month" at which I usually pushed him away, He knew it was "that time", but assured me, he only wanted to give me pleasure...
   I guess I must think in boxes; it is either all or nothing for me. And so, when I did not think it was all a good time, then it was nothing. Last night, after I resisted my husband yet again(argh!), my heart cried out to God, and I began to cry and cry and pray. Eventually the sobbing subsided, and I calmed down(my DH had sleepily held onto me and let me cry it out).    It was then I felt like God said in that still small voice, "Those arms that hold you are my arms", I felt the warmth and strength of my husbands arms about me. I realized by pushing my husband away, I am pushing God away. NO WONDER I was sooo very lonely!!!  I have been pushing the Lord away all this time and refusing to receive guidence and comfort  here on earth ,from my Saviour...
   How eagerly I went to myhusband and how eager I will always reamain! Life is an education. Boxes, boundaries, self imposed rules, they are all the same ink.
   Today was like a new day! My children, my house, my chores, I saw everything with different eyes, THANKFUL eyes, a grateful heart and a soul full of  joy and love....
  
 "A wise woman guages her husbands needs. She seeks to fulfill his desire before even he is aware fo them. She never leaves him daydreaming outside of home. She supplies his desire."

   Ladies, as the time draws close to Our Heavenly Saviour coming, the enemy of our souls will pour it on even more...WE NEEDS to fall on our faces before our Father and ask for guidence, Help, truth, and  our hearts to be changed....not to stay in the same mold, as we always have...
    Pray, as we never have before...for us to HEAR His still small voice, to determine, in our hearts to do the will of the Father..not our own wills....hard?, you think, yes, it is, but, the joys that will flood or souls when we do.... 
   More later....

   Love to all who read.....
   !~~~TERRI~~~!

DH's experience while dead.....

Hello friends in christ...

   It's been wayyyy tooooo long since I have been on this here computer....LOL!

   Tis time to start posting again...I have been trying to lassso my DH and get him to tell me His story the way he wants me to. but, that seems asaolutely unprofitable, so, I will pass it along as He told me, on day 2 after his emergency quadruple bypasss surgery.

   Our day started out like any other, said our goodbyees, hugged/kissed and he left. He usually calls me on his way to work, and tells me what he sees along the way, he did and  we said goodbye again.

    He got to work, and he called me to say he might be home early, ok. Then on the way to his next job(he checks densities for a business on dirt/concrete),He called and told me that he just wanted to tell me again, how much He loved me, and that He might be home early(this was at 2:00pm), and I went  back to canning tomatoes. At 2:25pm, the police department called me and said that my DH had been in an accident and I was to get to the Hospital stat! I was still holding the phone, when a friend of ours, who is a Police officer, opened the door and (I was still holding the receiver in my hand, stunned),I asked him what I was suppose to do, He then said to put the receiver down, get my purse and coat and we needed to get to the Hospital. I was still in shock!!!~~~@@###@!!~?>"{{}_+)*&.....................

I did, when we got to the Hospital, 7 minutes away, I went straight in, and there lay my husband, GRAY skinned, and stunned, He did not know me at fist, His boss had beat me there and he told me, he knew him, sos, he went in with me, and told DH that I was his wife, then it came back......He looked as if he died and came back, GRAY skin, glassy eyes, and cold,cold, fingers......

He then asked what happened, at this point, I didnt even know what had happened, I went to ask, and was told by the Doctor, that he had died and had a heart attack, then kept going with CPR, then brought back with defilibration...He kept saying, "Where did they find me...Honey, where am I?" He didnt remember anything......

We were there for 2 hours getting him stabilized, then off the the bigger Hospital we went, I did not see him for 3 hours, our 2 sons were here and they took off with(not in) the Ambulance, so they were there with him, although he did 'nt even know them....

   The next 2 days, were my/your worst nightmare, he underwent emergency 4 way bypass surgery, then had E-coli/Pheumonia/Staph infection in his left lung, and was VERY; VERY, sick...the Doctors kept telling me how sick He was, but, not tellimg me all this was going on....

On day, 3,.....He said one morning, Hon, I remember what happened....He told me about how he died and saw Jesus...He said, at the time he died(He only knows what happened before, because a friend was following him and saw him slump over in his pickup)...he was standing there, really in nowhere, and there was NO PAIN, NO GUUILT; NO anything, but COMPLETE PEACE,,,an overwhelming PEACE...a PEACE that he said he had never EXPERIENCED AND PROBABLY WILL again till he gets to Heaven....

He then thought "I dont want to go back", its to Peaceful"...

Every question that he thought was getting answered, soo fast, he just had to think it.....

Then He saw Jesus' arms/hands and His GLOWING robe come out of nowhere...DH says, He felt soo much Peace that he was wondering what was in his hands...

It looked like two loaves of French Bread, with the ends cut off, that Jesus was holding, and Jesus placed these on his body as He was laying there and said....................

"This is the gift of life, and with it there will be a requirement"...and was gone!

My DH then remembers, hearing from the paramedics>>"Can you hear us, Can you hear us"? He said yes, and on to the Hospital they went....

There was one thing that Jesus told my DH to <<<<<<>>>>>>>>

"I AM COMING SOON, AND TO GET TO KNOW HIM..."

Ladies...Do  you really know Him??????

Is your heart changed into His image...PLEASE read the Scripture about what will and wont enter Heaven......this is not some made up story, We are just ordinary People with troubles and sin just like you, But, DO YOU REALLY KNOW HIM?????

Dh wants me to pass on the unending PEACE he felt, where He was, and the PEACE He felt through Jesus simple words......

Fall on your face today, and don't waste another minute staying where you are in your heart....time is coming to an end, and then what?

LOVE To all who read..

TERRI